Only a short post this afternoon as not much has happened in my life that would keep you followers entertained.
As you may have seen or heard, today is the day that school leavers find out their GCSE results.
I happen to be one of them school leavers, and that small brown envelope contained the answer as to whether my life would be worth living or not.
I have to say, my grades aren't that bad. But still not what I had hoped for. I guess I'm being a little hard on myself, there was just such high expectations.
At the end of the day, a pass is a pass and I've managed to get myself into 6th Form so it's not that bad.
Now I just have to wait for the 2nd of September so I can enroll.
Thats all for now, everyone.
Bye :)
Tuesday, 24 August 2010
Sunday, 22 August 2010
Tears, Heartbreak and Wishful Thinking.
I have returned from Cornwall and had the most amazing time of my life! I am seriously considering moving there in a couple of years.
However, I came home to find that my suspicions about my boyfriend were true. He had in fact cheated on me and has continued to talk to the girl telling her how he loves her and vice versa.
As a result, me and my boyfriend sat down and both decided that it was best if we didn't stay together.
We split up on the day of our 3 year anniversary, I can't even describe how that feels.
I have never been so heartbroken, I don't really know how I'm going to cope.
I have been crying for days and haven't really eaten much.
Part of me hopes that he will realise what we had before was perfect and come running back to me like you see in the movies. But who am I kidding, this is real life and things in movies don't ever happen in real life.
I am angry at myself for not appreciating what I had and how lucky I was to experience a relationship as wonderful as that.
So if anyone out there is reading this, please don't make the same mistake as me live each day as if it were your last.
However, I came home to find that my suspicions about my boyfriend were true. He had in fact cheated on me and has continued to talk to the girl telling her how he loves her and vice versa.
As a result, me and my boyfriend sat down and both decided that it was best if we didn't stay together.
We split up on the day of our 3 year anniversary, I can't even describe how that feels.
I have never been so heartbroken, I don't really know how I'm going to cope.
I have been crying for days and haven't really eaten much.
Part of me hopes that he will realise what we had before was perfect and come running back to me like you see in the movies. But who am I kidding, this is real life and things in movies don't ever happen in real life.
I am angry at myself for not appreciating what I had and how lucky I was to experience a relationship as wonderful as that.
So if anyone out there is reading this, please don't make the same mistake as me live each day as if it were your last.
Saturday, 14 August 2010
He loves me, he loves me not?
So, I'm off to Cornwall in the early hours of tomorrow morning which is utterly exciting! :)
I'm so glad that the time has finally come, I've been in need of a break so bad.
You see, my boyfriend has been in Portugal for 2 weeks, and now he's a different person.
I don't even know if I'm with him anymore, to be honest. He's met a French girl out there and they seem to be spending all the time they can together.
He's humiliated me beyond belief, because he's gone on a family holiday so all his family know what he's been up to. So when I go and see him when he comes home, they will all be sitting there looking at me thinking, 'I know what he's been doing'.
When he actually does bother to contact me all he talks about is this girl.
And yes, I am jealous. She is beautiful and thin, and I'm not particularly great looking and I have big wobbly thighs.
He's been watching her prance round in her bikini looking amazing, how is that supposed to make me feel?
I told him that I'm jealous of her and his response was, 'So I guess that means I can't go and visit her in France then?'
NO YOU CAN'T! What sort of a question is that?!
Next week me and my boyfriend would have been together for 3 years and we was going great until he went away. Now everything's changed and I don't even know where I am with him.
We know each others passwords for everything because we trust each other, and last night he changed his Facebook password. Now, for us this is a big deal. Usually, we wouldn't even think about doing such a thing, so what has he got to hide?
So, this made me change his password back, and he's changed the password again. So, I changed it back and then he changed it AGAIN. So I changed it back. He will probably change it again while I'm away in Cornwall.
I don't know what he's playing at but it's quite clear he doesn't want me finding something out, and perhaps doesn't want to be with me anymore. I know I mentioned it earlier, but we was perfect together. Absolutely perfect. I don't understand how it could go so wrong.
He needs to sort his priorities out.
I've been in a right state, I thought I would have to call the ambulance last night as my heart was pounding and racing, my breathing was difficult, I was dizzy and shaking.
I really don't know what to do, I'm not coping very well.
This trip to Cornwall will hopefully do me good and take my mind off things.
I don't know if I should ignore his calls and texts when he gets home from Portugal, or if this could make things worse. He might think, 'She doesn't want to know me anymore so I can find someone else'.
I want my boyfriend back, I don't know whats happened to him :(
I'm so glad that the time has finally come, I've been in need of a break so bad.
You see, my boyfriend has been in Portugal for 2 weeks, and now he's a different person.
I don't even know if I'm with him anymore, to be honest. He's met a French girl out there and they seem to be spending all the time they can together.
He's humiliated me beyond belief, because he's gone on a family holiday so all his family know what he's been up to. So when I go and see him when he comes home, they will all be sitting there looking at me thinking, 'I know what he's been doing'.
When he actually does bother to contact me all he talks about is this girl.
And yes, I am jealous. She is beautiful and thin, and I'm not particularly great looking and I have big wobbly thighs.
He's been watching her prance round in her bikini looking amazing, how is that supposed to make me feel?
I told him that I'm jealous of her and his response was, 'So I guess that means I can't go and visit her in France then?'
NO YOU CAN'T! What sort of a question is that?!
Next week me and my boyfriend would have been together for 3 years and we was going great until he went away. Now everything's changed and I don't even know where I am with him.
We know each others passwords for everything because we trust each other, and last night he changed his Facebook password. Now, for us this is a big deal. Usually, we wouldn't even think about doing such a thing, so what has he got to hide?
So, this made me change his password back, and he's changed the password again. So, I changed it back and then he changed it AGAIN. So I changed it back. He will probably change it again while I'm away in Cornwall.
I don't know what he's playing at but it's quite clear he doesn't want me finding something out, and perhaps doesn't want to be with me anymore. I know I mentioned it earlier, but we was perfect together. Absolutely perfect. I don't understand how it could go so wrong.
He needs to sort his priorities out.
I've been in a right state, I thought I would have to call the ambulance last night as my heart was pounding and racing, my breathing was difficult, I was dizzy and shaking.
I really don't know what to do, I'm not coping very well.
This trip to Cornwall will hopefully do me good and take my mind off things.
I don't know if I should ignore his calls and texts when he gets home from Portugal, or if this could make things worse. He might think, 'She doesn't want to know me anymore so I can find someone else'.
I want my boyfriend back, I don't know whats happened to him :(
Tuesday, 10 August 2010
Tattoo Help Needed!
I understand that tattoos are for life and I have done a lot of thinking on the subject and have decided that I really do want some.
I have two options for my first tattoo, the first option being my name (Elizabeth) and its meaning (promise of God/God's promise) in Hebrew writing as my name is Hebrew. Below is a picture of the tattoo. I would like this tattoo to go up my side.
The second option is the words 'Vivere Memento' which means remember to live in Latin. I would like this to go across my right wrist.
If anyone has any idea on how much these tattoos would cost then PLEASE get in touch!!
Any other comments are welcome :)
Damn Technology
You have probably noticed that I haven't done a new post in a while. This is down to the fact that my laptop decided it didn't like me anymore and died on me. However, my auntie's boyfriend happens to work with computers for a living so he managed to fix it for me which I am so grateful for!
For the past couple of weeks I have been as bored as hell as my boyfriend is on holiday and my friends are doing their own thing, and to top it off I had no laptop!
Having no laptop got me thinking, and I have come to the conclusion that we rely too much on technology to keep us entertained these days. Whatever happened to reading books and appreciating them?
Anyway, I'm going to do another post in a few minutes about tattoos, so if anyone is a tattoo artist or knows one that can help me and answer a few questions, please get in touch!
Bye :) x
For the past couple of weeks I have been as bored as hell as my boyfriend is on holiday and my friends are doing their own thing, and to top it off I had no laptop!
Having no laptop got me thinking, and I have come to the conclusion that we rely too much on technology to keep us entertained these days. Whatever happened to reading books and appreciating them?
Anyway, I'm going to do another post in a few minutes about tattoos, so if anyone is a tattoo artist or knows one that can help me and answer a few questions, please get in touch!
Bye :) x
Wednesday, 28 July 2010
Boredom and My New Found Love for the IT Crowd
Wow, what a long time it's been since I published my last post.
You would think that I've been out places doing amazing things with no time to write a new post, but no.
I've simply been living the life of a slob. Waking up in the late afternoon, eating and then sleeping again. That has been my life for the past couple of weeks. And boy has it sucked. I've never been so bored!
But thankfully, I was introduced to the IT Crowd, a hilarious comedy on Channel 4. I've been working my way through each episode in order of series and the boredom sure has backed off. I recommend anyone and everyone to watch the IT Crowd on 4od (the website where you can watch programmes you missed from Channel 4)!
I'm off to get something to eat now but hopefully I will be back on later to give you a few updates of what's been happening in my life.
Bye :) x
Monday, 12 July 2010
My Weekend of Drama, Tension and Too Much Alcohol
Boy, have I got a hell of a lot to tell you!
I'm going to warn you now, this post might be very long so be prepared to keep scrolling down...
So, I haven't done a new post since Wednesday as I had a 6th Form Induction day on the Thursday and then had to travel down to Eastbourne straight after. The whole reason of going to Eastbourne was for a wedding I was invited to, along with my boyfriend's family as it was his auntie getting married. So far so good.
We arrived at my boyfriend's nan's house in Eastbourne and everyone was happy as a result of the excitement for the wedding the following day. The men went out for the night (including my boyfriend) so I was left with all the women. Sitting around drinking glasses of wine and having a laugh, it turned out to be a better night than I thought.
Then Friday came. I sat alone by myself for 6 hours getting ready, while everyone else completely forgot about my existence downstairs. I'm not implying that I should be the centre of attention, it would have just been nice if I had received a 'morning' when I woke up, instead of getting pushed out of the way like I was some sort of obstruction in their path. I know the morning of a wedding can be stressful and all that, but is there really any need to be snapped at when you ask a simple question, such as 'When is everyone putting on their outfits?'. I believe not.
Anyway, we arrived at the wedding late because we had to travel to the venue with the bride and she was running late getting ready. When we eventually got there, I walked over to where I was supposed to be seated and felt everybodys eyes glaring at me, as if to say, 'Who the hell are you, and what right do you have getting to sit at the front with all the immediate family?'. You see, I had never met half of these people before as I have only been with my boyfriend 3 years and have not been to many events with him to meet them all. So their disapproval of my 'intrusion' on their relatives wedding was quite understandable and seemed to stay with them the whole night.
However, I didn't exactly make the situation any better for myself; I got drunk. And embarrassingly drunk, too. I don't remember a lot. Just that I seemed to talk to this woman all night that a lot of people aren't fond of as she is an alcoholic. We spoke about all sorts of things, our love for auburn hair, my dislike for my nose and how I tried out modelling for a laugh (which I sincerely wish I never mentioned and cringe every time I think about it). The main thing that I clearly remember her saying was 'You and your boyfriend won't be together in the future'. And maybe she's right. I accepted that and carried on drinking.
As the night went on and I consumed more alcohol, I began to cry. Hysterically. I got told the next morning that this crying went on for 1 and a half hours continuously without a break. And everybody said I told them that the reason I was crying was because this lady I had been speaking to all night had upset me by saying, 'You and your boyfriend won't be together in the future'. Which I don't believe at all. She didn't even upset me by saying that! But unless I watched myself back I will never know if this is what I said for certain. My boyfriend and his family like to exaggerate and enjoy making assumptions.
So anyway, I was sat down by the bride and was shouted at for being so stupid for listening to an alcoholic lady about my relationship and getting all upset over it. The only part I remember of this was the bride telling me if I don't stop crying she will hit me, and I didn't stop crying so she did hit me. But not properly of course. Although it wouldn't have mattered to me as I couldn't feel it anyway I was that drunk. My sense of feeling had disappeared.
As the anger of someone upsetting me had filled the bride, she apparently went and found the alcoholic lady that had 'upset' me and shouted at her so bad that it made the lady cry! This was of course all my fault because if I had never have carried on drinking the way I did, I wouldn't have cried and nobody was have got shouted at as a result of my drunken crying.
Everybody else in my boyfriend's family said to him that night, 'Sort your girlfriend out' as I was making a spectacle of myself. I have never been more ashamed and embarrassed; that was the first impression that I gave my boyfriend's relatives.
The rest of the night is just a blur to me, the pictures being the key to me seeing truly how drunk I was. Until they are developed or whatever, I will just have to wait and try and put my embarrassment behind me.
As you would expect, my hangover the next morning was terrible. I attempted to get up but realised this was a bad idea and climbed back into bed again. My boyfriend came to see if I was okay and he stayed with me for ages. Finally, I decided to take my boyfriend's advise and have a shower to make myself feel a little better. However, I couldn't even turn the shower on so just left it and fell onto the bathroom floor and layed there until my boyfriend discovered me several minutes later.
Going downstairs and facing everyone after my disgraceful behaviour the previous night, I could tell I wasn't welcome. Being invited to a family event again will probably be quite rare.
That night after I had recovered during the day, we all went out for dinner to the local pub restaurant down the road. The atmosphere was extremely tense between me and my boyfriend's mum and had been all day.
This wasn't unusual for me as his mum has seemed to take an extreme dislike to me over the past couple of weeks, or even months for whatever reason. I put it down to the fact that our personalities have really started to clash lately; she is very much a control freak, whilst I am laid back and take things as they come.
Anyway, me and my boyfriend wind each other up which tends to leave one of us raising our voice to the other. But it's all in good nature, we don't mean anything by it and it is certainly not arguing of any sort. But his mum believes that we are arguing and has recently got herself involved between the two of us, saying how we 'bicker constantly'. I don't know exactly what has been said because I found all this out from my boyfriend, so obviously he won't tell me all the horrible things she says about me in between, but I have learnt that the 'bickering' is somehow my fault.
Anyway, back to the story about going out for dinner at the pub restaurant, the atmosphere was extremely tense between me and his mum.
We wasn't sat on the same table as there wasn't enough room, so me, my boyfriend, and his little sister all sat on a table by ourselves. It was here that I realised my boyfriend was being rather quiet so I asked him what was wrong. He told me that he was thinking. He wasn't going to tell me what was wrong, only his sister, as he felt it would 'worry me and upset me'.
I eventually got him to agree to tell me so the three of us left to walk back to his nan's house early and he told us what was up. Apparently, his mum had told him that I am not welcome down his nan's house anymore because of the bickering between me and my boyfriend. She couldn't tell me this to my face, however, just resorting to giving me a filthy look when I happened to glance in her direction while we was out for dinner. And why she decided to say all this to him this weekend is beyond me, she could have waited til we got back to London at least. Making the decision that I'm no longer welcome at his nan's house also baffles me as it is not even her house. His nan should be the one making that decision, surely?
Today, however, me and my boyfriend proved by a mile that we should stay together, much to his mum's dislike. I'm sure she would have liked to think that she was right about me and him not being good together, but we made it clear that this wasn't the case.
Me and my boyfriend laughed together and hugged and just made it very clear that we are extremely happy together, and the bickering was obviously just us messing around.
I am home now, and it has been a couple of days since the wedding. I'm hoping everyone has kind of forgotten about my out of character behaviour.
Until they are reminded of it when they see the pictures, of course.
Apart from all the drama, I did thoroughly enjoy myself this weekend.
I am very tired now as I haven't had a proper nights sleep in a while.
Expect another post tomorrow people :)
Bye x
P.S.
Advise: Don't get drunk at events you have been invited to by your partner's family! Very BAD idea!
I'm going to warn you now, this post might be very long so be prepared to keep scrolling down...
So, I haven't done a new post since Wednesday as I had a 6th Form Induction day on the Thursday and then had to travel down to Eastbourne straight after. The whole reason of going to Eastbourne was for a wedding I was invited to, along with my boyfriend's family as it was his auntie getting married. So far so good.
We arrived at my boyfriend's nan's house in Eastbourne and everyone was happy as a result of the excitement for the wedding the following day. The men went out for the night (including my boyfriend) so I was left with all the women. Sitting around drinking glasses of wine and having a laugh, it turned out to be a better night than I thought.
Then Friday came. I sat alone by myself for 6 hours getting ready, while everyone else completely forgot about my existence downstairs. I'm not implying that I should be the centre of attention, it would have just been nice if I had received a 'morning' when I woke up, instead of getting pushed out of the way like I was some sort of obstruction in their path. I know the morning of a wedding can be stressful and all that, but is there really any need to be snapped at when you ask a simple question, such as 'When is everyone putting on their outfits?'. I believe not.
Anyway, we arrived at the wedding late because we had to travel to the venue with the bride and she was running late getting ready. When we eventually got there, I walked over to where I was supposed to be seated and felt everybodys eyes glaring at me, as if to say, 'Who the hell are you, and what right do you have getting to sit at the front with all the immediate family?'. You see, I had never met half of these people before as I have only been with my boyfriend 3 years and have not been to many events with him to meet them all. So their disapproval of my 'intrusion' on their relatives wedding was quite understandable and seemed to stay with them the whole night.
However, I didn't exactly make the situation any better for myself; I got drunk. And embarrassingly drunk, too. I don't remember a lot. Just that I seemed to talk to this woman all night that a lot of people aren't fond of as she is an alcoholic. We spoke about all sorts of things, our love for auburn hair, my dislike for my nose and how I tried out modelling for a laugh (which I sincerely wish I never mentioned and cringe every time I think about it). The main thing that I clearly remember her saying was 'You and your boyfriend won't be together in the future'. And maybe she's right. I accepted that and carried on drinking.
As the night went on and I consumed more alcohol, I began to cry. Hysterically. I got told the next morning that this crying went on for 1 and a half hours continuously without a break. And everybody said I told them that the reason I was crying was because this lady I had been speaking to all night had upset me by saying, 'You and your boyfriend won't be together in the future'. Which I don't believe at all. She didn't even upset me by saying that! But unless I watched myself back I will never know if this is what I said for certain. My boyfriend and his family like to exaggerate and enjoy making assumptions.
So anyway, I was sat down by the bride and was shouted at for being so stupid for listening to an alcoholic lady about my relationship and getting all upset over it. The only part I remember of this was the bride telling me if I don't stop crying she will hit me, and I didn't stop crying so she did hit me. But not properly of course. Although it wouldn't have mattered to me as I couldn't feel it anyway I was that drunk. My sense of feeling had disappeared.
As the anger of someone upsetting me had filled the bride, she apparently went and found the alcoholic lady that had 'upset' me and shouted at her so bad that it made the lady cry! This was of course all my fault because if I had never have carried on drinking the way I did, I wouldn't have cried and nobody was have got shouted at as a result of my drunken crying.
Everybody else in my boyfriend's family said to him that night, 'Sort your girlfriend out' as I was making a spectacle of myself. I have never been more ashamed and embarrassed; that was the first impression that I gave my boyfriend's relatives.
The rest of the night is just a blur to me, the pictures being the key to me seeing truly how drunk I was. Until they are developed or whatever, I will just have to wait and try and put my embarrassment behind me.
As you would expect, my hangover the next morning was terrible. I attempted to get up but realised this was a bad idea and climbed back into bed again. My boyfriend came to see if I was okay and he stayed with me for ages. Finally, I decided to take my boyfriend's advise and have a shower to make myself feel a little better. However, I couldn't even turn the shower on so just left it and fell onto the bathroom floor and layed there until my boyfriend discovered me several minutes later.
Going downstairs and facing everyone after my disgraceful behaviour the previous night, I could tell I wasn't welcome. Being invited to a family event again will probably be quite rare.
That night after I had recovered during the day, we all went out for dinner to the local pub restaurant down the road. The atmosphere was extremely tense between me and my boyfriend's mum and had been all day.
This wasn't unusual for me as his mum has seemed to take an extreme dislike to me over the past couple of weeks, or even months for whatever reason. I put it down to the fact that our personalities have really started to clash lately; she is very much a control freak, whilst I am laid back and take things as they come.
Anyway, me and my boyfriend wind each other up which tends to leave one of us raising our voice to the other. But it's all in good nature, we don't mean anything by it and it is certainly not arguing of any sort. But his mum believes that we are arguing and has recently got herself involved between the two of us, saying how we 'bicker constantly'. I don't know exactly what has been said because I found all this out from my boyfriend, so obviously he won't tell me all the horrible things she says about me in between, but I have learnt that the 'bickering' is somehow my fault.
Anyway, back to the story about going out for dinner at the pub restaurant, the atmosphere was extremely tense between me and his mum.
We wasn't sat on the same table as there wasn't enough room, so me, my boyfriend, and his little sister all sat on a table by ourselves. It was here that I realised my boyfriend was being rather quiet so I asked him what was wrong. He told me that he was thinking. He wasn't going to tell me what was wrong, only his sister, as he felt it would 'worry me and upset me'.
I eventually got him to agree to tell me so the three of us left to walk back to his nan's house early and he told us what was up. Apparently, his mum had told him that I am not welcome down his nan's house anymore because of the bickering between me and my boyfriend. She couldn't tell me this to my face, however, just resorting to giving me a filthy look when I happened to glance in her direction while we was out for dinner. And why she decided to say all this to him this weekend is beyond me, she could have waited til we got back to London at least. Making the decision that I'm no longer welcome at his nan's house also baffles me as it is not even her house. His nan should be the one making that decision, surely?
Today, however, me and my boyfriend proved by a mile that we should stay together, much to his mum's dislike. I'm sure she would have liked to think that she was right about me and him not being good together, but we made it clear that this wasn't the case.
Me and my boyfriend laughed together and hugged and just made it very clear that we are extremely happy together, and the bickering was obviously just us messing around.
I am home now, and it has been a couple of days since the wedding. I'm hoping everyone has kind of forgotten about my out of character behaviour.
Until they are reminded of it when they see the pictures, of course.
Apart from all the drama, I did thoroughly enjoy myself this weekend.
I am very tired now as I haven't had a proper nights sleep in a while.
Expect another post tomorrow people :)
Bye x
P.S.
Advise: Don't get drunk at events you have been invited to by your partner's family! Very BAD idea!
Wednesday, 7 July 2010
Laziness, Packing and My Crazy Imagination
Once again, I found myself waking up at 12:30 in the afternoon. And that was only because my boyfriend rang me and woke me up. I even set myself an alarm so I would get up this morning, but I switched it off and went back to sleep when it went off. Terrible. I'm so lazy!
So nothing really got done today. All I've managed to accomplish was have a shower and get dressed. I'm actually ashamed of myself. I planned to tidy my room some more and pack my suitcase for when I go away to Eastbourne tomorrow.
Which brings me onto another subject; packing! I love to pack. I write up lists of what I should bring and pack my suitcase in that order. I love crossing each thing off as I go, it makes me feel so organised!
Is that weird? I think it is. I don't really tell anyone about my passion for packing, incase they think I'm even weirder than they orginally thought.
I want to borrow my mum's professional make up/nail artist's holdall, so I can take all my make up with me! I would like to imagine myself as a professional and international make up artist on her travels. I'm a bit of a dreamer you see.
I always imagine myself to be in different roles. Sometimes, when I'm walking down the high street with my sunglasses on and heels and oversized handbag, I like to think I'm a celebrity. In Lady Gaga's biography, she mentions how we are all famous, just nobody knows it yet. That's how I imagine myself a lot of the time. I think I'm the only person that does this. I am weird.
I would love to know if you guys imagine yourself in different roles sometimes. If so, comment on this post :)
Today is a really sad day for me. This is officially the last day I can blog until Sunday night! Or maybe Monday; even worse! I'm going to be in Eastbourne for a while, and I won't have access to a computer or laptop to keep you posted on any new goings on. So I'm going to write it all down as it happens and then when I'm back I can type it all up for you.
I'm so scared. There's REALLY amazing looking people going to this wedding, so I'm going to have put in extra effort to even look half decent next to them. And seeing as I'm not exactly Cheryl Cole, that is going to be very hard.
I'm sorry this post is so long, I just wanted to get as much in as I could before going away. And I also had a lot to share with you. I'm in a very talkative mood today. Or typeative? I know that's not even a word but I'm typing, not talking. You know what I mean.
So yeah, please do comment on this post if you also imagine yourself in different roles sometimes. Or even tell me your thoughts on it, like if you think I'm just weird. Anything you like, I love reading your comments.
Bye (for 4 whole days, sad times!) x
So nothing really got done today. All I've managed to accomplish was have a shower and get dressed. I'm actually ashamed of myself. I planned to tidy my room some more and pack my suitcase for when I go away to Eastbourne tomorrow.
Which brings me onto another subject; packing! I love to pack. I write up lists of what I should bring and pack my suitcase in that order. I love crossing each thing off as I go, it makes me feel so organised!
Is that weird? I think it is. I don't really tell anyone about my passion for packing, incase they think I'm even weirder than they orginally thought.
I want to borrow my mum's professional make up/nail artist's holdall, so I can take all my make up with me! I would like to imagine myself as a professional and international make up artist on her travels. I'm a bit of a dreamer you see.
I always imagine myself to be in different roles. Sometimes, when I'm walking down the high street with my sunglasses on and heels and oversized handbag, I like to think I'm a celebrity. In Lady Gaga's biography, she mentions how we are all famous, just nobody knows it yet. That's how I imagine myself a lot of the time. I think I'm the only person that does this. I am weird.
I would love to know if you guys imagine yourself in different roles sometimes. If so, comment on this post :)
Today is a really sad day for me. This is officially the last day I can blog until Sunday night! Or maybe Monday; even worse! I'm going to be in Eastbourne for a while, and I won't have access to a computer or laptop to keep you posted on any new goings on. So I'm going to write it all down as it happens and then when I'm back I can type it all up for you.
I'm so scared. There's REALLY amazing looking people going to this wedding, so I'm going to have put in extra effort to even look half decent next to them. And seeing as I'm not exactly Cheryl Cole, that is going to be very hard.
I'm sorry this post is so long, I just wanted to get as much in as I could before going away. And I also had a lot to share with you. I'm in a very talkative mood today. Or typeative? I know that's not even a word but I'm typing, not talking. You know what I mean.
So yeah, please do comment on this post if you also imagine yourself in different roles sometimes. Or even tell me your thoughts on it, like if you think I'm just weird. Anything you like, I love reading your comments.
Bye (for 4 whole days, sad times!) x
Tuesday, 6 July 2010
Trouble!
I tidied my bedroom today and I must say I did a rather good job at organising everything! :)
But as I've said before there's always some sort of drama in my life, and that's exactly what happened today.
I was excitedly sorting all my make up into categories and then putting them into separate boxes, when shock horror, black eyeliner got itself on my cream carpet! And now there's this huge black line across my carpet and several black patches dotted all over it, too!
I've tried carpet cleaner and eye make up remover, which seems to have helped a little but the stain is still there. So, if anyone has any suggestions on how to get black pencil eyeliner out a cream carpet, then please comment on this post!
As I'm a huge Lady Gaga fan, I thought I would share some great news with you! Lady Gaga has got more than 10 million fans on facebook, and is the first person to ever get that much!
What a big middle finger that is to all the haters that told me she is 'retarded' and has 'no musical talent' .
I'm going to watch a bit of Gok's Fashion Fix now.
That programme makes me fall in love with Brix even more every time I watch it, and her gorgeous little pugs! I noticed earlier that one of Brix's pugs, Pixie, has a little pearl necklace! Or it could have been diamonds, I couldn't really make it out, but adorable nontheless!
I plan to get a pug when I'm older and I'm going to call him Toby :)
So yeah, I'm off now, I plan to write again soon!
Bye x
But as I've said before there's always some sort of drama in my life, and that's exactly what happened today.
I was excitedly sorting all my make up into categories and then putting them into separate boxes, when shock horror, black eyeliner got itself on my cream carpet! And now there's this huge black line across my carpet and several black patches dotted all over it, too!
I've tried carpet cleaner and eye make up remover, which seems to have helped a little but the stain is still there. So, if anyone has any suggestions on how to get black pencil eyeliner out a cream carpet, then please comment on this post!
As I'm a huge Lady Gaga fan, I thought I would share some great news with you! Lady Gaga has got more than 10 million fans on facebook, and is the first person to ever get that much!
What a big middle finger that is to all the haters that told me she is 'retarded' and has 'no musical talent' .
I'm going to watch a bit of Gok's Fashion Fix now.
That programme makes me fall in love with Brix even more every time I watch it, and her gorgeous little pugs! I noticed earlier that one of Brix's pugs, Pixie, has a little pearl necklace! Or it could have been diamonds, I couldn't really make it out, but adorable nontheless!
I plan to get a pug when I'm older and I'm going to call him Toby :)
So yeah, I'm off now, I plan to write again soon!
Bye x
Monday, 5 July 2010
Inspired!
So, I was on Youtube as usual when I came across this really cool profile. It's by a girl called Blair who does lots of hair and make up tutorials.
I was scrolling through her videos when I found a video of a tour of her room. As I adore interior design, I decided to watch the tour and was stunned at how beautiful a bedroom could be! Everything was so organised but in such simple ways; I don't know why I hadn't thought of them before! All she used to keep everything tidy was simple plastic storage boxes and them plastic storage things on wheels with all the draws (I don't know what they are called, I hope that was a good enough description!).
She has inspired me to sort out my state of a bedroom and get rid of everything I don't use and completely rearrange my room. I'm so excited!
I will try and show you some before and after pictures of my room when I'm finished with it (that could take a couple of weeks, the state that my room is in!).
Blair and her sister have a website, and I must say I could buy everything on there! It's all stuff you can have personalised, like make up bags and spa wraps. Possibly the most cutest website ever.
I will list Blair's Youtube and Blogger accounts at the end if you fancy taking a look, and also her website.
So yeah, back the bedroom thing. I don't think I've ever been so eager to tidy my room before.
I feel like giving my room a complete revamp, but I don't really know how; I have so many ideas! I'm thinking of buying a notice board and decorating it with cute ribbons and stuff. Ooo, exciting! :)
I want a canvas or two done as well to really personalise my room more.
I'm kind of rambling now and letting my thoughts run away with me so I best stop. I wouldn't be surprised if you have fallen asleep already!
http://www.youtube.com/juicystar07#p/u/53/5MrZ8OtSis4
http://www.blairfowler.blogspot.com
http://glitzy-glam.com/store/
Expect more blogs soon :)
Bye x
I was scrolling through her videos when I found a video of a tour of her room. As I adore interior design, I decided to watch the tour and was stunned at how beautiful a bedroom could be! Everything was so organised but in such simple ways; I don't know why I hadn't thought of them before! All she used to keep everything tidy was simple plastic storage boxes and them plastic storage things on wheels with all the draws (I don't know what they are called, I hope that was a good enough description!).
She has inspired me to sort out my state of a bedroom and get rid of everything I don't use and completely rearrange my room. I'm so excited!
I will try and show you some before and after pictures of my room when I'm finished with it (that could take a couple of weeks, the state that my room is in!).
Blair and her sister have a website, and I must say I could buy everything on there! It's all stuff you can have personalised, like make up bags and spa wraps. Possibly the most cutest website ever.
I will list Blair's Youtube and Blogger accounts at the end if you fancy taking a look, and also her website.
So yeah, back the bedroom thing. I don't think I've ever been so eager to tidy my room before.
I feel like giving my room a complete revamp, but I don't really know how; I have so many ideas! I'm thinking of buying a notice board and decorating it with cute ribbons and stuff. Ooo, exciting! :)
I want a canvas or two done as well to really personalise my room more.
I'm kind of rambling now and letting my thoughts run away with me so I best stop. I wouldn't be surprised if you have fallen asleep already!
http://www.youtube.com/juicystar07#p/u/53/5MrZ8OtSis4
http://www.blairfowler.blogspot.com
http://glitzy-glam.com/store/
Expect more blogs soon :)
Bye x
My Weekend
My day trip to Brighton turned out to be quite successful :)
Despite the terrible blisters on my feet from walking around in flip flops all day, I was quite happy to look round the shops with my wonderful boyfriend. The sun was shining and I was in a good mood so nothing really bothered me; apart from the fact that I had no money to spend on all the wonderful clothes and make up!
To make my day even better, I saw Henry Holland! If you're wondering who he is, he is a designer and does lots of presenting on Channel 4.
Well, at least I think it was him, if not then it was a really good lookalike! But I will just continue believing it was him.
Today I just had a lazy day in bed (what I usually do on a Sunday) on my laptop and watching T4 on the Beach on Channel 4.
So overall, I had quite a nice weekend.
Lets just hope this week is also successful; I have to go into school for a 6th Form trial day and then travel down to Eastbourne that night for a wedding the next day.
In my next post I'm thinking of writing a review on something, I don't know what yet. Maybe some new make up that I have bought recently, or a book I have read.
Any suggestions are welcome :)
Bye x
Despite the terrible blisters on my feet from walking around in flip flops all day, I was quite happy to look round the shops with my wonderful boyfriend. The sun was shining and I was in a good mood so nothing really bothered me; apart from the fact that I had no money to spend on all the wonderful clothes and make up!
To make my day even better, I saw Henry Holland! If you're wondering who he is, he is a designer and does lots of presenting on Channel 4.
Well, at least I think it was him, if not then it was a really good lookalike! But I will just continue believing it was him.
Today I just had a lazy day in bed (what I usually do on a Sunday) on my laptop and watching T4 on the Beach on Channel 4.
So overall, I had quite a nice weekend.
Lets just hope this week is also successful; I have to go into school for a 6th Form trial day and then travel down to Eastbourne that night for a wedding the next day.
In my next post I'm thinking of writing a review on something, I don't know what yet. Maybe some new make up that I have bought recently, or a book I have read.
Any suggestions are welcome :)
Bye x
Saturday, 3 July 2010
Day Trip
Today I'm off to Brighton. I thought it would be a lovely day laying on the beach gaining a glorious tan, but oh no. I have to trudge round the shops tagging along behind my boyfriend while he spends all his money.
I even went out yesterday to buy a bikini specially but I can't even put it to any use!
I have a few pounds that I could maybe spend in Primark, but that's about as far as my money will go.
So a fun day I'm going to have.
But I guess you have to make the best of a bad situation, and I will try to have a good day.
It's a day out, better than being stuck at home. I will think of it as a nice day trip :)
Many of my posts so far seem very negative, I'm not usually like this.
Hopefully I can give you a positive report on how today went in my next post!
Have a good weekend,
Bye x
I even went out yesterday to buy a bikini specially but I can't even put it to any use!
I have a few pounds that I could maybe spend in Primark, but that's about as far as my money will go.
So a fun day I'm going to have.
But I guess you have to make the best of a bad situation, and I will try to have a good day.
It's a day out, better than being stuck at home. I will think of it as a nice day trip :)
Many of my posts so far seem very negative, I'm not usually like this.
Hopefully I can give you a positive report on how today went in my next post!
Have a good weekend,
Bye x
Friday, 2 July 2010
Prom Pictures!
Before I show you the pictures from last night's prom, I would just like to apologise for the sudden wave of posts that have been published on my blog. A few technical issues meant that my posts wouldn't publish, but now it's been fixed which means that a few posts have been published in one go tonight!
Anyway, here are the all important pictures, enjoy!
Oops!
By the way, I'm so sorry, I totally forgot to take a picture of my prom hair! I said to you guys in one of my posts that I was going to put up a picture of it, but my mind was elsewhere; I was too excited about getting into my dress!
Once again, I'm really sorry! I'm a bit of a scatterbrain so this is something you might have to get used to with me haha.
Bye x
Once again, I'm really sorry! I'm a bit of a scatterbrain so this is something you might have to get used to with me haha.
Bye x
High Expectations
Last night was the night of my prom, and I have to say me and my boyfriend looked the best!
I had been looking forward to prom for months so my expectations had gotten kind of high, so last night wasn't really as good as I expected.
Hardly any pictures were taken so it was kind of a waste buying such a beautiful dress and going to all that effort, but hey, that's always the way.
I didn't really spend enough time with my friends, everyone was off doing their own thing. It would have been better if everyone stayed together.
However, I'm not saying it was completely rubbish. It was good, just my expectations were too high.
I thought I would have loads to write about it, but in all honesty I don't really have much to say.
I will upload the pictures I took in the next post because I borrowed my neighbours camera and she still has the lead for the laptop.
Bye x
I had been looking forward to prom for months so my expectations had gotten kind of high, so last night wasn't really as good as I expected.
Hardly any pictures were taken so it was kind of a waste buying such a beautiful dress and going to all that effort, but hey, that's always the way.
I didn't really spend enough time with my friends, everyone was off doing their own thing. It would have been better if everyone stayed together.
However, I'm not saying it was completely rubbish. It was good, just my expectations were too high.
I thought I would have loads to write about it, but in all honesty I don't really have much to say.
I will upload the pictures I took in the next post because I borrowed my neighbours camera and she still has the lead for the laptop.
Bye x
Thursday, 1 July 2010
Lady Gaga
So, I've had a few complaints about how Lady Gaga is 'retarded' and has 'no musical talent'.
I would like to express my outrage at this, as I don't understand how people can just assume these things without knowing anything about her.
Having read her biography, I have learnt that she has been a classically trained pianist since the age of four and has been able to play the piano by ear since that age, too.
So don't tell me she has 'no musical talent'.
I have also been to her first opening night of her Monster Ball Tour in London and witnessed the most amazing performance you could ever see, her voice was so beautiful and very powerful. Just watching videos of her on the internet or on television is good enough, but listening to her sing in person is something else, it's incredible.
As for the people that say she's 'retarded', I don't know how they have the front to say such a thing for two reasons. Firstly, 'retarded' is an offensive term for someone with disabilities, so throwing the word around like it doesn't mean anything is thoughtless and immature. Secondly, Lady Gaga is possibly the most intelligent, down to earth celebrity that there is. She was a straight A student at school, so people that call her 'retarded' don't know anything about her and have no right to make such judgements.
People also link her to Paris Hilton because they went to the same school, but Paris is much older so her and Lady Gaga wouldn't have had a lot to do with each other during their school years.
This is an example of the rubbish that people are so quick to believe in magazines and newspapers.
Sorry for the rant, future posts will be more positive :)
Bye x
I would like to express my outrage at this, as I don't understand how people can just assume these things without knowing anything about her.
Having read her biography, I have learnt that she has been a classically trained pianist since the age of four and has been able to play the piano by ear since that age, too.
So don't tell me she has 'no musical talent'.
I have also been to her first opening night of her Monster Ball Tour in London and witnessed the most amazing performance you could ever see, her voice was so beautiful and very powerful. Just watching videos of her on the internet or on television is good enough, but listening to her sing in person is something else, it's incredible.
As for the people that say she's 'retarded', I don't know how they have the front to say such a thing for two reasons. Firstly, 'retarded' is an offensive term for someone with disabilities, so throwing the word around like it doesn't mean anything is thoughtless and immature. Secondly, Lady Gaga is possibly the most intelligent, down to earth celebrity that there is. She was a straight A student at school, so people that call her 'retarded' don't know anything about her and have no right to make such judgements.
People also link her to Paris Hilton because they went to the same school, but Paris is much older so her and Lady Gaga wouldn't have had a lot to do with each other during their school years.
This is an example of the rubbish that people are so quick to believe in magazines and newspapers.
Sorry for the rant, future posts will be more positive :)
Bye x
Nervous!
Prom is getting closer now and the nerves are really kicking in!
Only another 24 hours to go and I will be there in my dress and shoes with my hair and make up done!
But, as always, I have a problem to deal with. As I mentioned in my last blog, my boyfriend's auntie is going to do my hair for me. However, my mum doesn't want it to be done at my house as she wants to get on with jobs around the house but she can't if the kitchen has to be turned into a hair salon.
So I spoke to my boyfriend and mentioned having it done at his house (seeing as it is HIS auntie after all) but he's not having any of it! We even argued about it. So now my mum is fed up and annoyed because she can't do any of the housework she planned to do tomorrow.
To make matters worse, my mum says that his auntie 'isn't really her cup of tea' (I don't see why though, she's a perfectly lovely lady) which is just going to make things awkward tomorrow.
Argh! Nothing is ever simple. But that's life I guess.
I will keep you updated on how it goes and put a picture up of my hair for you! :)
Bye x
Only another 24 hours to go and I will be there in my dress and shoes with my hair and make up done!
But, as always, I have a problem to deal with. As I mentioned in my last blog, my boyfriend's auntie is going to do my hair for me. However, my mum doesn't want it to be done at my house as she wants to get on with jobs around the house but she can't if the kitchen has to be turned into a hair salon.
So I spoke to my boyfriend and mentioned having it done at his house (seeing as it is HIS auntie after all) but he's not having any of it! We even argued about it. So now my mum is fed up and annoyed because she can't do any of the housework she planned to do tomorrow.
To make matters worse, my mum says that his auntie 'isn't really her cup of tea' (I don't see why though, she's a perfectly lovely lady) which is just going to make things awkward tomorrow.
Argh! Nothing is ever simple. But that's life I guess.
I will keep you updated on how it goes and put a picture up of my hair for you! :)
Bye x
Wednesday, 30 June 2010
Exciting news!
So, today is my second day of being a 'blogger' and I have some exciting news to share with you.
Tomorrow is my end of school/year 11 prom and I'm so excited! The dress is hanging up ready and my shoes are still new in the box.
My dress is a deep navy blue with small beads and sequins sown onto the upper body. It's floor length and sort of gathered in places; I will include a picture to show you what I mean. I think I'm going to look OTT because everyone else is wearing short party dresses, which in my opinion is not what you wear to a prom.
Anyway, I'm having my hair done tomorrow by my boyfriend's auntie because she's a hairdresser and I'm hoping she doesn't charge me more than £10 as I'm so broke at the minute!
I'm thinking of having an updo but don't know whether to have it like a messy updo or a neat one?
Well, I'm off now to do my eyebrows and nails ready for tomorrow.
I will put up some pictures of the prom for you!
Bye :)
Bye :)
introduction :)
Hi guys, I'm new to this thing so i don't really have a clue what to write.
I guess introducing myself would be a good start!
My name is Elizabeth but nobody ever calls me it, (apart from when its my birthday or Christmas when my mum writes it on my presents and in my cards) I usually just get called 'Lizzie' or 'Liz'.
When people have just met me i can come across as shy and maybe quiet but once you get to know me you will know that I'm quite the opposite!
I can seem a little eccentric with my quirky ways and the way I love to stand out from the crowd.
My family say I'm 'away with the fairies' and 'in Lizzie world' because I'm always so laid back and chilled out.
One of the most important things you should know about me is my love/obsession for lady gaga! I know most things about her, own all her albums, have a t-shirt, went to her first ever London monster ball on the opening night, collect magazines which feature her, you name it! You may call me psychotic or crazy or whatever but i have serious love for that woman; I'm a true little monster!
I'm quite a girly girl at heart as i love all things hair and beauty, especially hair dye and a good mascara!
I see the world from a very open minded point of view and accept people for who they are, i don't like to judge.
I could go on and on but i think I'll stop it there,
hopefully I'll be writing more blogs soon!
bye :)
P.S. i promise future blogs will be way more interesting! :)
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